:having or showing a modest or low estimate of one’s own importance:

Nothing like a little humility to set me straight.

After my last post I started the research journey of lent. Which seriously means I read Facebook posts and blogs. God speaks through people, so those are total accountable resources! Right? Real stories! I opened my bible too….online….on my computer screen, for truth. I pulled sources together, cross referenced things, listened to God.

I heard this over everything:

“When you fast, do not look somber as the hypocrites do, for they disfigure their faces to show others they are fasting. Truly I tell you, they have received their reward in full. 17 But when you fast, put oil on your head and wash your face, 18 so that it will not be obvious to others that you are fasting, but only to your Father, who is unseen; and your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.” Matthew 6:16-18

I’m pretty sure this was God covering my mouth and telling me nicely to shut up. I had to take a step back and ask myself, “Mandy, who are you fasting for? What is your purpose in this? It’s not even a real fast, what are you doing? Who’s applause do you want?”

Then I felt conviction. I felt humility. I felt a little dirty.

In came grace. Right on time. Real grace. I said He would catch me. He sat me down, rubbed my head and said, “Oh child of mine, you have so much to learn. Great enthusiasm though, keep it up!” Then I woke up humbled, renewed.

I started this thing to learn, learn I have and learning I am and will continue to do so. But I will do so quietly. I won’t complain to co workers or mention it at home. I will just do it with obedience and with silence. Of course after this blog entry I will start. I was convicted again on even writing about this, but after prayer and reflection and listening to God I believe I am to share it. To walk with Christ is to give glory in all we do to God. I just learned something HUGE and was caught beautifully by His grace.

I open myself to wisdom, ask for it and seek it. With wisdom comes humility.

I am humbled.

So strange to say and an even odder concept….I am honored to have been embarrassed by my words because the wisdom that came from my humility has humbled me and has made me in awe of my creator. God is so beautiful and so full.

And this is the purpose of a fast that I have come to realize….to have a spiritual awakening. To reflect. To curl up on God’s lap and say “God, I need you right now, more than ever. Catch me. Teach me. I love you. You fill me. You are not of this word. Thank you.” and to do so quietly. Intimacy with Yahweh.

More truth could be revealed and it will humble me more and I will be grateful.

You Are Welcome

There is power in the words, “you are welcome.” This phrase was one that was foreign to my mouth until it was pointed out just recently to me that I rarely ever mutter it. This week I made it my task to say these 3 little words.

This is a small little, often thoughtless, phrase that people wiggle from their lips on the daily. But darn it, these are important and should be acknowledged! We are taught as children that “please” and “thank you” are worth their weight in gold. We are told to be polite little creatures and to mutter these, even when we don’t feel the need. It becomes implanted in our minds, but not necessarily in our hearts. I don’t ever remember my mom shoving “you are welcome” down my throat and into my vocab. She never taught me to recognize the “thanks you”‘s.

This week I learned that it isn’t the “thank you” that is important, it is the “you are welcome” that shows the magic. It is a response to show pride in the work you just did for another. It is recognition for a job well done. It is a mindful thank you for thanking me for what I did for you. Don’t respond with “no big deal” or “it was nothing.” Because it WAS something. It WAS a big or small deal. A deal is a deal no matter the size. You just took time from your day to serve someone. Let them thank you and in return give them the gift of “you are welcome.”

Pay attention this weekend my friends. Acknowledge the “thank you”‘s and give them a hearty welcome. Welcome the “welcomes”.